I am sick of hustling, I am sick of the grind, I am sick of things going to shit. Just when things are looking up! I don't know if this shit is ever gonna work for me. I swear down blud I am so fed up Yogi, I cannot be dealing with it anymore.
I hope when i’m really fucked off, i’ll just remember this exact feeling right now. It’s not common that i’m in a good mood a l l day. Usually lasts until about 7pm and then all I get pooy but today has actually been proper nice. Nothing in particular has happened as such, but idk i just feel weirdly happy.
Was talking to my dad yesterday and aw, he was being so nice to me about the whole jordan thing. Made me realise that I don’t actually give a fuck. I think I thought to myself that I had to care, when actually I didn’t. I was more embarrassed than anything if I’m honest. And I used to think that everyboyone was the same but I genuinely think that there are some decent guys. I’m only 17 like, settling down right now would be queer but it would be nice to idk, asdfghjk have cringy stuff with someone that wouldn’t seem cringy at the time if ya’ get me. So yah, just felt like I needed to get that off my chest and stufffff